Longing

I read once that Vienna is a city of cafes and waltzes. Its old world elegance shines in its sophisticated music and charming cafes where a cup of tea comes with a doily. I've experienced some of this here. I've also experience other things.

It is the other things that have the mood of our home low and and our stress level high. I could go into great detail now, but I won't. All I really want to do is convey our struggle right now, to ask for your prayers for peace to come to us. Due to a series of events, we find ourselves in a mess right now. None of it is our fault, nor do we have any control over anything. Nobody is dying, no one is seriously injured -- I do have a little perspective. But, the mess remains. The stress it causes remains. The uncertainty grows. The amount of work ahead of us multiplies. And my longing to escape it all weighs on me heavily. I know our God is greater than any problem, He has proven his faithfulness to me time and again. I also know that sometimes, God allows some hard situations in our lives, even when we are perfectly centered in His will. Even more so. I really do know He can overcome any obstacle. However, it doesn't mean that I enjoy these obstacles and it doesn't mean that I don't long for day when there will be no obstacles. I long to escape to an obstacle free world, one that is not really my home.

One day, I will escape it. One day, all this worry, stress, frustration, fear and numerous other adjectives will disappear. Through all of the struggles this week, my longing for that time has grown. I don't want to jump off a bridge somewhere. I do, however, look forward to the day when my citizenship is eternal and my visa has been paid for in blood. And the waltzing will be on streets of gold.

"But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior" Phil 3:20